Missing Illustration



If you didn’t happen to know what I studied in college, it was Art and Design. I’ve always had an on and off, complicated relationship with art. I love it, I love studying it and looking at it and creating it can be extremely therapeutic but some days doing art just frustrates me and can rough up my confidence with it. I struggle with making art I’m happy with and I always feel like if I had better tools (brushes, watercolours, pens etc) for it, I’d maybe be more motivated, however I do not have the money for that.


I am choosing to study English/Creative Writing in University because I do long to improve my writing skills and study it a lot more. I’d love a job in the future based around/influenced by my degree, so that’s why I didn’t choose to go on to do an art degree, however I do miss making art a lot. I look a lot of pieces I did in college and it makes me miss sitting down and putting time into a project and liking the outcome. For example, a lighthouse painting piece I did on canvas in my first year of college always makes me long to do a canvas painting again, however I do not have the patience or concentration in my free time. It’s such a shame.


As well as painting, illustration is one of the loves of my life. I get so envious and overwhelmed stalking the instagrams and portfolios of really talented illustrators. Some artists can make illustrations just so gorgeous and humble that I want to cover my walls in their prints. Therefore, I honestly wish I had their talent, however growing up I have definitely learnt illustration/art skill comes from constant practice and is not just gonna be right there when you touch pencil to paper. I recently followed a beautiful illustrator and lovely girl on Instagram who goes by the username of @AnniePancake! One of her posts talking about facts about herself appeared on my recommendations and honestly her whole style is something I wish I had. She’s been studying at University and says she first thought she couldn’t draw but her art style is just so eye-catching and cute! Her portfolio/store is at http://www.anniedornansmithdesign.co.uk and honestly I recommend everyone check her out because her illustrations are gorgeous!  The typography/font she paints on her designs are so pretty too!

So inspired by talent like Annie and a lot of other illustrators I follow on Instagram. I hope in the future to do a lot more illustrations, maybe even some to have on my blog posts to give it a lot more individuality and unique design. Is there any illustrators you love on Instagram that you think I should check out? Tell me!

Thanks for reading,





Small ideas to kick start productivity when you suffer from depression

This could be similar for people suffering with depression or people who have quite normal brain chemistry alike but a lot of days you just don’t have the energy to do anything. To me it makes me feel like my body is ill but there’s no symptoms I just feel drowsy and ready to nod off and you want to avoid everything. Sometimes on worst days, literally everything. Grossly enough, you might even avoid showering and feel content to just staying in pyjamas for a couple of days on end, making excuses not to see friends because you just don’t feel it’ll do you any good. You feel like your body is not up to it for some reason.

Anybody else feel this? It’s a bit of a pants feeling, but I promise you, some very small steps can help you boost your motivation and get you back on track.

  1. Wash your face – This is such a small step I know, but it will refresh you. There’s a good reason why it’s one of the first things you do to wake yourself up in the day. Doesn’t matter if it’s mid afternoon, evening or 2am, go cleanse your face with some water and exfoliate and then splash cool water on it. Your skin will feel clean and awake.
  2. Select a part of your room and clean it – Cleaning your room is a huge drain of energy when you feel like this, I understand. So pick a small part, this could be your desk, your bed, your bookshelf, wardrobe. Give it a good clean, for example your bed area: take your duvet off, sprinkle/spray a bit of essence or your favourite perfume on the sheets, make your bed again and then vacuum around it! Maybe even take it up a notch and budge your bed over if you can and vacuum underneath the bed! I’ll be proud of you even if you just make your bed!
  3. Shower – This speaks for itself. Take a lovely warm shower and use a nice smelling shower gel. If you have to go out and are in reach of a Superdrug you could pick up one of their shower gels for only 99p! Cruelty free and they will lighten up your mood with the delicious scents. The shea butter one will leave a sweet linger that will comfort you and make you smell as sweet as you are.
  4. Get dressed and take a walk – Taking even a small 15 minute walk burns around 60 calories and gives your body a good pump of blood circulation. You get some fresh air as well and if you take a walk in the day which is the best time for this productive walk – you’ll get some vitamin D from the sun which will improve your mood balance. Put on your comfiest, cutest jumper and take your music out with you and enjoy the scenery. Take a few photos of scenery you like for yourself. No need to put them on Instagram or get sad if they’re not good images. This is all for you.

So you’ve done all that? That is incredibly productive and you should feel proud. You should never force yourself to do too many things in a day if you don’t want to. Taking a walk, showering and cleaning is productive enough! I hope these small tasks make you feel a bit more motivated to do other stuff. Maybe invite a friend on your walk, maybe do some small exercises in your room or even clean more of your room!

Is there any small things you do to motivate yourself?

Thanks for reading,

Helena x