‘Alice’ by Christina Henry: Book Review

Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland by L.Carroll is a story popular for being retold, adapted and used as an inspiration for new projects. The list for film and television programmes based on Alice in Wonderland is big enough to have its own Wikipedia page, the novel has been adapted into musical/stage productions and has even inspired stories and characters in video games. However, another common thing artists and writers take from Alice in Wonderland is twisting it and creating a dark retelling of the tale of the girl falling down the rabbit hole. ‘Alice’ by Christina Henry isn’t the first ‘dark’ and ‘edgy’ retelling of Alice in Wonderland I have come across, as the first one is actually PS3/PC and Xbox 360 game Alice: Madness Returns. A game I actually quite enjoyed growing up!

‘Alice’ the 2015 novel by Christina Henry also almost brought that excitement back to me but this time in written form. Now I will say my first write-up of this and the feelings I had when I finished the book was very similar to how I finish most books which are excited and feeling accomplished! I wrote down how much I adored this retelling and that even though it was disturbing it felt like it succeeded in making a point about the dark topics used. But now I’ve sat back and thought about it, I thought I’d share my honest, spoiler-free review of ‘Alice’.

What I did enjoy about this book is that I enjoyed the inverted characters, I really loved seeing Henry’s dark portrayals of originally beloved characters from the books but this time they’d be antagonists and have very dark, irredeemable pasts. Objects and tropes from the original tale made appearances too such as the ‘Eat Me!’ cupcake and ‘Drink Me!’ bottle, the roses and the tea party. But, this time everything had such a darker symbolism and it was quite clever how Christina had changed this. Even after finishing I’m recalling characters and realising their reference to the original story and being quite intrigued. The story itself played out almost like an RPG, in which there was ‘bosses’ and big bads one after the other, the main characters stopping for rest and food and the main character herself having a power she didn’t even realise she had. I didn’t mind reading it this way and actually quite enjoyed it, I liked imagining in my head what Old City was like and enjoyed that some of the names of places and areas called back to Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland and if they didn’t (or I couldn’t get the reference) they still brought personality to the world.

However, my biggest gripe with the story is that there was way too much sexual violence. I get this was meant to be a mature, disturbing retelling where there will be horror, gore and blood and I could get behind that and in some novels and stories I can understand why rape, abuse and violence comes up and if the victims manage to get a happy ending, revenge and the story emphasizes how horrible it is, I can normally accept a story having it. What I think went wrong in ‘Alice’ however is, although the story is clear the trade of young girls for sexual purposes or being eaten is horrific and the men that puppeteer this need to be punished, the way it’s written feels like they tried to emphasize how horrible it is by making it happen so often, by describing Alice’s trauma in detail, and having every female in the story basically either terrified of being raped or had been. Even then, I personally felt the final fights with the main antagonists that were rapists or allowing this violence and abuse were so anti-climatic that there was no justice? There was a scene of freeing a bunch of girls from the horrible trade and I was grateful for that scene but it’s almost as if the original plot had one antagonist in mind and then it was said the story was not brutal enough or ‘real world dark’ enough so they added in all this sexual violence?

Personally, I found myself gripped to parts of this book and did want to find out the outcome of every character and felt myself wanting Alice to get revenge and justice not just for herself but for all the females in the story. I did also find myself quite wanting to read the sequel book (Red Queen -and pray that hopefully the level of sexual violence is remarkably toned down) just so I can find out what happens next in the story.

I’d rate ‘Alice’ about a 2.5 of 5 as it has some cool fantasy ideas and I could somehow picture it in a film or video game but after sitting back I do see the flaws in how parts of it were written. Shock value is popular for a reason, popular media like Game of Thrones is widely watched and read for a reason and I feel the reason is purely that people are so shocked and astonished by what characters do and think it’s so out of the blue (and normally it is, sometimes very out of character) that they must finish it to find out what happens! I definitely succumbed to that reading this. I enjoyed parts of it but in general was very much turned off by the use of sexual violence and rape as shock value. Would I like to read any of the other stories by Christina Henry such as Lost Boy? Possibly. But ‘Alice’ in itself is a story not for everyone.

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Thank you for reading!

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Dealing with the world when you feel too small to do anything: part 2 of ?

A weird thing I sometimes do when it’s late at night and I’m having a case of bad anxiety or even if I can feel a small bubble of nervousness in my tummy is make a cup of herbal tea and a bowl of dry cereal. I’m a weird person in which I’ve never liked milk on cereal (unless it’s a chocolate cereal like Weetos – that’s an exception) so the dry cereal isn’t really out of the ordinary to me except that I’m sat at my computer at midnight or even later nibbling on cheerios and feeling a little bit more jittery than usual. But for some reason a dry, carb-y food like a bowl of cereal calms me a little bit.

I didn’t want these series of posts to come out of writing when I’m anxious but they feel a lot more genuine when I do because not only does writing them calm me down but I honestly feel I can express my points or give my advice better when I can imagine what any other person feeling anxious like me might even slightly feel like. That’s the thing with some anxious moments or days – once they’ve passed the experience can be quite fuzzy in our minds and they don’t feel as severe as they did when you try and explain them later. I always had this problem with explaining anxiety to my counsellor, in my worst anxiety attacks I’d feel so much but then a week later when a counsellor asked me to tell them how I feel I wouldn’t be able to comprehend all the feelings and physical symptoms I felt.

In this post, I don’t want to dwell on what’s gotten me in this anxious mood but I wanted to share some more tips on what to do when you’re like this. Last time I mostly focused on how to bring ourselves out of it. To close the story/tab/media that was making us anxious, to talk our feelings through out loud or to a friend and not feel guilty for removing ourselves from whatever is inducing our anxiety, anger or upset. This time I want to give you some tips on easing that ‘there is nothing I can do’ feeling. The hopelessness feeling. Especially if you are insistent on wanting to do something.

  1. Embrace this feeling and remember this is a positive trait.

I can’t remember when I found this post via Tumblr but it’s a post that has stuck with me for a good while and I think it’s extremely important.

“you all have a little bit of ‘I want to save the world’ in you, that’s why you’re here.”

Now the whole quote from the writer is to do with being in college but I think the trait is very applicable to almost anyone. If you have a little bit of ‘I want to save the world’ in you, it is something you should be extremely proud of. You need to embrace this feeling and remember you are one of the people this world definitely needs. Everybody should have this feeling in them because this world needs more empathy and kindness. In this day and age, social media makes it so easy for the negative, terrifying and apathetic voices to take over and be the mascot for the world. Remember that doesn’t speak for everyone. If you feel like you can’t find any kind people. Be that kind person.

2. Try and find petitions to sign.

This is honestly a thing I do and although I realise maybe it could be pointless or the very bare minimum of contributing to a protest for something, it is a small way of pushing for a step in the right direction. For some petitions, people made them personally wanting to fight for something and to add onto the many signatures they’ve already got I feel like I have contributed even in a small way and it makes me feel like I’ve done something. The petition websites I trust include Change.org and Parliament’s petition website but even if I find a petition I feel is important to sign but don’t feel comfortable signing it’s ok because you shouldn’t increase your anxiety. If you need to make a backup email for petitions then do that or only sign petitions that don’t request postcodes.

3. Spread awareness on your social media

Now the important thing with this tip is not falling for the dodgy, non-reliable articles that may have even caused your anxiety in the first place. If you find a petition for an important cause, share it on Facebook or Twitter to see if your friends sign it too. If there is a vote coming up soon, make sure to share information on how to register to vote and polling station rules on your social media to encourage others to vote. The important thing about this step is that you are spreading awareness to stories or also giving people ideas on what to do to work towards a better future so you are doing something towards it. (On some social media there are add-ons to blacklist certain topics so, on Instagram, Tumblr or Twitter maybe tag any articles you share if you are worried about upsetting any anxiety in your friends!)

4. Look into volunteering or groups you can join to be active

Now, this tip might not be for everyone or even possible for everyone due to everybody having different lives. Some people might not have the spare time or money to volunteer or some people may feel too anxious or uncomfortable to join a group of strangers but if you feel you want to do something active towards a kinder, nicer future – try looking into volunteering or groups! If you are on the political side and want to contribute to a party you believe in there is a lot of opportunities for supporters in the UK to do so, I think it’s also quite easy in Universities where there will be societies like Labour societies or Green party societies. If your anxiety sits somewhere in environmental, maybe google to see if there are litter-picking/beach clean up groups to join. Perhaps if you just, in general, want to contribute to being a better person look into volunteering at an animal sanctuary, charity shops, brownies/scouts groups or at a youth group! Do-It is a great website to try and find volunteering opportunities near you!

Finally, my last point I want to make, much like the last post, is don’t feel stressed with yourself or guilty and take your time. The main lesson here is that we want to relieve your anxiety and move past it because you need to let your body and brain realise it can’t do a million things at once, it can’t save the world and the world does not rest on your shoulders individually. You are just a person. You are only human. Even doing small things one step at a time is doing something and working towards a better future and you shouldn’t push yourself any harder than that and you should listen to your body. When you are feeling drained or overwhelmed remember to take a break and relax. Do not feel guilty.

I hope everyone enjoyed this one and has picked up even one or two tips from it.

Thank you for reading and have a lovely week,

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Reusable coffee mugs and where to get them!

This year a lot of big companies have been attempting to make small changes that prove their ‘care for the environment’ and so that they are being ‘more green’ and the most popular one recently is companies either only giving out plastic straws is asked, charging for plastic straws or outright banning them. However, a lot of the companies who have banned plastic straws have had negative reactions due to the implications this poses for disabled customers. The prime story is how people reacted to Starbucks banning plastic straws in their drinks and replacing them with a new plastic lid. A lot of ‘reusable’ or ‘eco-friendly’ straws don’t work well for disabled people or could pose a safety risk, plus in my opinion and a lot of other people – surely replacing plastic straws with plastic lids creates just as much waste?

A better idea (if we keep our standards low) that Starbucks UK will be rolling out soon is the 5p paper cup charge. Starbucks paper/takeaway cups cause a waste of 4 billion cups every year because the company simply cannot or does not recycle them. The 5p charge works like this – Starbucks will charge 5p on top of your drink price for a disposable cup but if you have your hot drink to stay in (where it’ll be poured into a washable mug) you’ll have no extra charge (+0) BUT if you are having your drink to go and request it in your own reusable mug, they will give you a 25p discount. It’s a good incentive, right?

However, the criticisms here mainly is that Starbucks, as hard as they try, they have caused a big amount of waste and damage to the environment, much like Costa, McDonald’s and any other big corporation food/drink chain. The UK’s biggest coffee chains are Starbucks, Costa and Caffe Nero and they never recycle any of their disposable cups and the problem is people probably don’t realise this – which is clear especially on the amount of empty coffee chain cups people leave carelessly on pavements and in outdoor spaces (Manchester is guilty of this – people even hide them behind store displays out of pure laziness, it is honestly disgusting).

Other criticisms I’ve seen on this idea is that a lot of these coffee shops still create waste even when people bring their own mugs in –  the barista will use a disposable cup to measure out the drink before transferring it which I’ve seen happen before and honestly, it is something people should call out Starbucks, Costa etc out on more.

And another criticism is that the 5p charge is too small to have any impact, however, is this not the same thing that people would say when 5p bag charges came out? It all depends on the person but it has been proven these environmental charges are creating a small difference. (England’s plastic bag usage drops 85% since 5p charge introduced)

Like I said it all depends on the person, but if you are reading this and care even a little bit about the planet that we live on, that the people we love live on and our future family will live on, then maybe you should think about investing in a reusable mug! Luckily I’ve put a quick little list of cute and great online places to get your new reusable mug and start reducing your disposable waste intake!

  1.  Cute and inexpensive – Sass & Belle Travel Mug £8.50

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If you want a cheap but cute mug – you can find a lot of cute travel mugs on ASOS or online! This one from Sass & Belle is compact with a switch on top to close the lid and prevent spillage! Perfect for taking your favourite tea on the go!

2. Fun and BPA Free – ecoffee cup’s 12oz Darwin Mug £10.95

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Ecoffee cup is a brand dedicated to stopping the trend of single-use cups. All of their products are BPA and phthalate free and made with bamboo fibre! They make plenty of different cute patterns and drink sizes all at very reasonable prices!

3. A range of sizes and styles – KeepCup’s Sea Shepard Brew £14.00 

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KeepCup is another glorious brand dedicated to encouraging reusable products and claims their products are unbreakable and up to barista’s standards. The reason I share their Sea Shepard range is that if you purchase one of their reusable Sea Shepard mugs during July, 100% of the profits will go to Sea Shepards, a non-profit marine wildlife conservation organization. However, KeepCup has tons of different aesthetics, sizes and materials on their site if you wanted something else! There’s even adorable Star Wars KeepCups like this R2-D2 one!

4. Pricey but big in size – John Lewis Scion Hedgehog Travel Mug £15.00

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This John Lewis travel mug may be on the pricier side but it makes up for it in the 480ml it can hold and it comes with a very cute design! However, this mug may not be completely leak proof or have a sealable lid so it’s best to keep it upright at all times! Great to take with you to work or college!

KeepCup and ecoffee cup are some of the great, eco-friendly brands that are popping up recently you can also look at Stojo cups for inspiration! But if those aren’t your choice, John Lewis, Debenhams and ASOS do other cute travel mugs and flasks!

Sorry if this blog post is a bit all over the place! But I hope it does inspire you to invest in a reusable cup and cut down on your disposable mug usage!

Thanks for reading,

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Dealing with the world when you feel too small to do anything: part 1 of ?

So it’d be a lie if I said the world isn’t having it’s dark moments lately. Everyone knows what and who I mean. Tyrant leaders, governments falling apart and showing instability, cuts to things that are there to help people live normally, environmental problems, every day there will be a sad news story and at least every month it seems something bad happens.

I decided to start writing this post and maybe possibly turn it into a series of posts, because I know what it’s like to be paralyzed at your computer or phone in fear and scared by the news. The way my anxiety goes about it normally goes like this: I check twitter, I’ll go on the moments and if something dramatic has happened in either the world or politics, I will click on it and read the usual news websites (BBC, Guardian etc.) that come up first. Then I will go onto the tabloids that aren’t known to be trustworthy but in my state of anxiety my brain is believing anything and wants to know every corner of the situation in case it can find something to calm itself down, this goes on and on as people’s comments come in and the situation is drawn out and escalated – people argue, people bring up other things to prove their point, people have conspiracies and different theories and it all vigourously whirls around my brain like a tornado and I normally end up in a state of sitting, physically shaking at my computer, feeling like I’m about to throw up and feeling absolutely helpless and unsafe.

And yet every natural disaster, every terrorist attack, every dodgy thing a world leader does, every joke/meme about the apocalypse, even obvious propaganda – the cycle of anxiety starts. People close to me know about this and the answers I get always dwell to ‘don’t read it/stop reading it/turn your phone off and distract yourself.’. When I’m in my state of anxiety, I’m convinced keeping up to date with not only the story, but every randomers comment on Twitter or response to news articles, is somehow keeping me safe? That whilst my body is in flight or fight mode, that somehow keeping my brain focused on what’s making me panic is preparing my body for any danger. Yes, even over random tweets of politicians arguing about how they feel about Brexit or such. Hell, I’ll admit even the recent satire, comedy Sacha Boran Cohen has released ‘This is America’ (which despite what I’m about to say, I strongly recommend everyone watches it) left me in a spiral because in his show his extremist, pro-gun character he puts on manages to get people in Congress to admit they think arming young children would be a good idea? It’s bloody smart because it’s showing the world the true attitude of these people who are in great power but it left me in a spiral because I felt helpless that there’s nothing I could do to further expose these people or maybe even do anything to push their careers to a deserving downfall? I was scared about how people in the US government think.

But, I know deep down, it is not healthy nor safe to do this to myself. It is also not good for me or anyone around me to just give in and give up. To become a shell of complete pessimism and hopelessness, especially now. And I know there is plenty of people who may not fall into absolute anxiety and panic attack frenzy like I do, but will see news stories and fall back to ‘why care anymore’ attitudes – I can’t explain how sad or cringy it makes me feel when I’ve seen people say they’re not voting because ‘there is no point’, or claim protests ‘don’t do anything’. I remember once I called out an old friend back in high school on littering and she just said to me ‘who cares global warming is happening anyways’. It breaks my heart and spirit. But I refuse to give up completely, I want to help anyone who ever feels like this. I want to give even the smallest bit of hope to someone. I want to encourage people to try and fight the negativity because we need it. Our mental health definitely needs it. Sure, we can’t change the world completely but one day all of our little actions might and what I suggest now might help someone sleep better tonight and better on days when the news just seems like a complete rainstorm.

What I say doesn’t even have to be necessary for being anxious by the news. It’s meant to be for helping you deal with reading scary things online and dealing with a feeling of hopelessness. Whether you’re reading the news, whether you saw something your friends posted online that has made you feel sad, whether something happened to you that has made you feel like it is the worst day in the world. Don’t give in to the hopelessness feeling.

  1. Step away from the computer, put the phone down or close the tab.
    That weird saying of describing something as ‘being like a car crash but you’re unable to look away’ is definitely true and it can be relevant to anything. In my case, bad world/political/environment news or maybe even obviously trash comments online. I start reading something I know from the get-go will upset me but I keep reading and reading and scrolling and I can’t look away even though I know I won’t get full closure because social media is a big, endless hole of different personalities, fake personalities, trolls, fake news, exaggerations and stories. But what you need to do right now is close the tab. Whether it’s an article proving how disappointing our country leader is or that your crush has put themselves as in a relationship on Facebook. You need to close it and take a deep breath. You’re allowed to do this.
  2. Message someone to talk out your anxiety or even just talk it through with yourself out loud.
    Your anxiety and demons can sometimes yell over you and you feel very out of control but when you start to talk your thoughts through, rant, or label what of your thoughts is irrational or unhelpful it can really help you calm down and move on maturely. I always find myself doing it when I tell my mum something has made me scared or anxious. I’ll find myself going ‘then again, that news article can’t be entirely true because of X fact’ or if it’s a personal situation ‘then again this person might not have invited me out because of X reason not because they don’t like me?’. The irrational thoughts and jumps to conclusions start to fade a bit once you talk it out. If you don’t feel comfortable going to someone, I even find it helpful to talk to myself out loud just to hear something and calm myself down.
  3. Put on something funny, heart-warming or silly.
    A cliche tip but it does help. One fun story from when I was younger, my mum tried to tell me about a space story of solar flares or something along those lines and I was too scared to let her explain the story because when I googled it, those predictable conspiracy theories that ‘this solar flare will cause the world to end’ came up like they do every space story. Obviously the moral here, I should have let my mum talk it out to me and calm my anxiety down (I was 13 here, I’ve learnt to deal with my anxiety better since) but what I did was not sleep (stupidly) but to distract myself I watched tons of reruns of Mock the Week and comedy quiz shows until I fell asleep and a day or so later I had calmed down enough to look it up again and realise they were harmless.
    So stick on your favourite movie, stick on a tv show that makes you cry laughing, even google videos of positive stories or funny stories to remind you of the good stuff in the world, play a game without violence or gore in it (or do if that doesn’t agitate anxiety/bad feelings), listen to upbeat music and see if it helps!
  4. Finally, do not feel guilty for needing to look after yourself and consider how to deal with this anxiety
    If like me, this is a common place thing that happens a lot or you find yourself having literally paralysing anxiety like I do just from looking at social media or going online – consider maybe looking into help for your anxiety because I don’t believe(I’m no expert) it is normal at all. It is normal to feel sadness and fear from bad news or from stuff that goes wrong but paralysing anxiety is not normal.
    Secondly, and I need to physically remind myself of this too, do not feel bad for taking time out for yourself or taking a break from Twitter or Facebook. A lot of misinformation gets shared on there and you need to remind yourself now that politicians, celebrities, journalists, world leaders and even just regular people can share their opinions and views online and claim it as facts and if it is causing your mental health to drain you need to separate yourself from it for a bit. If you were holding a burning pan that was burning your hand you would need to let go. This is a similar thing. I always get anxious that maybe trying to distract myself means I’m being ignorant or ‘turning a blind eye’ but you need to remember – as long as you acknowledge something needs to change and that things aren’t all howdy-doody. That there are bad things and views in the world – you aren’t being ignorant.

 

I do want to write more of these posts, to share how to invest in positive news, how to make small changes, share some good causes when I find them and suggest things for myself and others to do but for now I will leave you with that. Just some simple things to remember to start bringing yourself out of the hopelessness feeling.

Go and get yourself a glass of water and stick a funny movie on.

Thank you for reading,

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My (Ongoing) Skincare & Acne Journey

I’ve struggled with rubbish skin since I hit puberty – on and off acne on both my face and back, always getting what felt like massive crater-like monsters on my nose or my cheeks, blackheads, random patches of oily skin, random patches of dry skin, red patches – my skin has changed so much through puberty I still don’t feel I could define what kind of skin I have aside maybe just calling it ‘a mess’.

Growing up, and I believe I’ve made a blog post about it before, I had a really tough time with skin-picking and scratching at my face and it took me a few years to realise I mostly did it when I was anxious or stressed. If you want to read the post I’ll link it here.

So obviously because of the cycle of getting acne or spots, picking at them and causing scars and more spots (I’d be really gross and pick a spot and sometimes forget to wipe it or clean my hands), I’ve ended up with very scarred and red cheeks naturally (that’s where all my acne/spots seem to go) and last year due to many things my acne flared up again and I decided this year I wanted to try to improve my skincare and hopefully make my skin look nicer. I do tell myself a lot that completely flawless, natural skin isn’t a thing because at the end of the day it isn’t. Everyone has pores, everyone gets wrinkles and scars, everyone gets those pesky blackheads and build up of sebum on their nose. It’s completely natural to have flaws but I am glad this year I managed to figure out what stuff benefits my skin and has helped it heal and I thought I’d share it to obviously remind myself down the line and maybe help other people!

DISCLAIMER: Everybody’s skin is different. Acne can occur for plenty of different reasons and can react differently to different products. Some of the things I mention in this were recommended by my doctor so I always recommend going to your GP for advice. I am not fully educated in skincare and health, I am just someone who struggled with skin picking, acne, acne scarring and found stuff that’s helped my face. 🙂

What I think caused my recent acne flare up

Like I said, I’m not a skin expert and the assumptions I make towards my skin could be false! But based on the habits I had and what is usually said as being bad for your skin, the main causes of my skin flaring up so bad, I believe, could have been from:

  • Skin picking
  • University stress and anxiety (Goes hand in hand with skin picking)
  • Fizzy drink consumption
  • Winter/Christmas eating
  • More alcohol consumption than usual
  • Hormones

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January I started taking photos because I had just been to the doctors about how upset I was with my skin and as of this she changed the birth control pill I was on and gave me a cream (I will talk about what they were in a bit), I was also in the midst of most of my first semester deadlines and a lot of university related anxiety. From then on I started using different products and such that I will talk about in a bit. Around April time I started occasional microdermabrasion appointments and finally July is where we are now and how my skin looks now! (As you can see not completely perfect, I still have a couple of spots and acne marks remaining).

Changes I made and what I believe has helped my skin

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Water
First of all, the most cliché change I made – and I’m sure everyone is sick of hearing it but it really makes a difference – is drinking more water. I have drinking way more water recently than I ever did last year and not just because of the ungodly heatwave we’ve had recently in the UK, but because it has so many benefits and I can feel the change it’s made. It helps my skin feel a lot more calm, less dry in places, less oily and just a lot more regulated, I’m seeing barely any spots and I’ve noticed tiny spots are more likely to pop up after days where I’ve been drinking just soda/caffeinated drinks instead of water. I’m not perfect I still drink coca cola and I have a current obsession with iced coffees but getting in at least two or three glasses of water a day really helps.

Vitamins and supplements
My mum originally bought the Vitabiotics Perfectil Tablets for me to try when I was teetering on the anemic side back early last year and was constantly fatigued and in general my nails and skin were in really poor condition cause of it however I started taking them again this year because for me they are really benefiting my skin – I’ve found my skin’s started to clear up when taking them and feels a lot more supple. I also recommend if you are a skin picker like me, taking vitamin C tablets when your skin is going through a phase of healing and scabbing from the picking or whatever. It really helps speed up the healing process.

Cleanser
This cleanser has been a life-saver for helping any scarring on my face! Obviously, it can’t get rid of the marks and scars that are quite settled in my face however I’ve noticed nice changes to my skin as I started using the Palmer’s Ultra Gentle Facial Cleanser, my skin feels a lot softer and after spots have gone from my face they aren’t leaving marks as much as they used to. The cleanser is great for removing makeup as well, which goes hand in hand with trying to prevent breakouts since leaving makeup on or not removing it properly can lead to getting spots. Also during the past few months I’ve started to not exfoliate as much as I used to (back in January I was probably exfoliating my skin everyday), and I feel it may have been a gentle benefit to my skin and helped the healing process better as over-exfoliating can damage your skin!

Gels
Instead of moisturizer the past month or two (mainly cause I ran out of moisturizer and keep procrastinating buying a new one), I’ve been applying Aloe Vera Gel to my cheeks and where there is spots because of the obvious benefits of both aloe vera and tea tree oil. The tube I got was very reasonably priced and I feel was a better choice for my skin than getting a fancy branded moisturizer that only has a tiny portion of aloe vera in. It’s also been very good for calming any red or stressed bits of my skin because of its cooling feel!

Duac Once Daily gel was prescribed to me by doctor when I originally saw her in January – it is a gel you apply once a day (I normally did it before bed), and it helps to try and unblock the pores but also target any bacteria or spots on your face. It has anti-bacterial properties and has benzoyl peroxide in it. When I used it I definitely felt a change in my skin in the morning after (make sure to wash it off when you wake up) and I felt it dried out any spots on my face quicker than most spot treatments.

SPF/Sun Cream
Enough said really. I’m a firm believer in trying to apply spf on your face everyday because it prevents the skin from aging and wrinkling and it also helps protect your skin from sunburn and just in general benefits the gentle skin on your face. Here is my favourite from superdrug.

Microdermabrasion
Finally, I was recommended microdermabrasion by a lady at work for getting rid of acne scarring and I decided whilst my skin was in quite a calm state (I was having less flare ups and picking less, the only thing troubling me was how red and scarred my cheeks were, to the point I didn’t even like applying blusher because it just felt like I was making my face look ridiculous). Microdermabrasion is a facial treatment where they exfoliate your face to take off all the dead skin cells on the outer layer of your skin. The lady who did mine was very friendly and we sat down beforehand I explained to her where I felt the problem areas on my skin was so she knew where to focus on the most. She would also cleanse and moisturize my face as well as putting a hot cloth on it to help open the pores. It was all a very relaxing experience with a great outcome! The first treatment doesn’t instantly give you the exact result you want and it is a thing where if you want to focus on clearing up deeper scars in your skin you’d have to go back but even after two treatments I can tell a lot of my scars have faded and become less apparent. My explanation is not the greatest of ones, but I definitely recommend it! If your favourite beauty salon or such nearby does the treatment definitely ask for a consultation and talk to them beforehand so you understand what will happen and how it works!

 

Sorry that was such a ramble and a lot to take in! Of course, I have not mentioned the birth control tablets and changes I made or individual little face masks or moisturizer I tried in the past few months or makeup I’ve used because I didn’t want to write a dissertation on the topic! If you managed to read this whole thing reward yourself with a piece of cake or a face mask because you deserve it! I hope some of the things on this helped or gave you an idea of changes you could make in your routine!

Thank you for reading,

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Little Blog Update ♡

Hey everyone!

It’s been a little while since I’ve posted any reviews or pieces on here and I do have quite a few planned, including two book reviews, but at the moment my current day to day situation is that my main laptop in which I use photoshop to create headers and edit photos for my blog is at my boyfriend’s house so when I’m at my family home I, unfortunately, don’t have access to it and I’d rather wait to make a blog post with better quality photos and a header and such instead of typing up blog posts at home and adding in the rest later in an update!

In general I am enjoying the sunshine and coping with the heatwave we are having in the UK at the moment, so in general, on my off days I am lounging about and basking in the free time I have now University is finished for summer. I recently went to Blackpool Pleasure Beach for a day out and had a really lovely time, as well as discovered some nice cafes around my area, tried new cruelty-free/veggie products I think others may enjoy and just in general trying to be more grateful for the things I get to do in my free time and things I discover and see on a day-to-day basis!

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If you would love to read any particular topics from me in my future summer posts please let me know in the comments! Anything from cruelty-free products, wishlist posts, cafe/food reviews, makeup reviews, book reviews, bullet journal updates/how to go about starting them or anything!

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As a little add on to this post, here are some uplifting/nice news stories I’ve read recently I thought I’d share to cheer people up:

Thanks for reading and enjoy your week!

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Some of my Pinterest boards

I first made a Pinterest back in 2013/2014 time whilst studying Art and Design in college to look for inspiration for my college sketchbooks and my final college art project. It was actually a really useful and secretly fun to be able to source many posts and images together in an almost ‘online scrapbook’ to refer to for inspiration and ideas. Pinterest isn’t one of the most reliable websites for keeping art attached to the correct artists since the internet is a horribly unfair place with people rudely reposting art and not sourcing where they found it however when finding art or posts that have kept the creator’s link or name connected it can be such a good website for stockpiling stuff from interesting blog posts, quotes and bringing different images together to create, like I said above, an online moodboard.

I thought I’d share with you my Pinterest and some of my boards that I have muddled together over the past year and a bit. Some of the boards I make can range from an ‘aesthetic’ moodboard where I’ve collected imagery and pictures and quotes or boards with blog posts and tips and charts for things to look back on for help.

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Link to ‘Workspace Goals’

The first one here is Workspace Goals, which basically explains itself in the title. I dream of one day having a really cute little study room or even a desk/work space set up in the way I like it and this board is just there for me to pine over the cute, minimalist photos of other people’s desks and such.

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Link to ‘Journal Inspo’

‘Journal Inspo’ is for pinning other images of bullet journals and such for inspiration and ideas for spreads as well as pinning people’s blogposts where they discuss tips and tricks for starting a bullet journal!

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Link to ‘uni tips’

This board has been super useful for me this past academic year because even the simplest photos on here that give you tips on managing your workload or suggesting more suitable vocabulary and words to use in essays. I definitely recommend checking some of the stuff pinned on there, if you are studying like myself!

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Link to ‘2018: motivation, discipline and self love’

This last one has been very personal and centered to helping me deal with my mental health, productivity and such in 2018. My goals as a person is that I would like to increase my productivity and motivation, keep myself disciplined but obviously learn to love my self a bit more. This board covers a lot of those things with links to blog posts and lists of stuff that discusses ‘good habits to develop’ or how to ‘beat bad feelings’, but also with lovely and empowering quotes and poetry. It’s one of my favourite boards and I’m glad to have found some of the stuff pinned on there.

Please find my pinterest page here; if you would like to follow me and definitely do as I’d love to check out other people’s boards! I hope some of my boards might be inspiring to others or have links and such on there that are useful!

Thanks for reading,

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